Monday, August 07, 2006

A Glass Darkly

For now we see through a glass, darkly;

The other day I took my kids to the movie theater to watch a flick We were in a rush to get there and get our seats and left the house in a big hurry. Quickly fed and out the door we got to the theater to find we were 30 min early. We bought our tickets, some extra popcorn for the extended wait and headed in to what we thought would be an empty theater.

The pre movie slides were going on and there were already 30+ people small families mostly, seated in the gloomy theater lights, so we found our way half way down and on the edge (one is potty training) and took our seats.

Watching people used to be something I would do with my father in the mall, sitting drinking a Slurpy watching the people go by in mass in front of Target in the mall. Now I sat with my three young children talking about the movie that was soon to start, eating popcorn and watching people, families inter-react, I was shocked.

I noticed that people that I engaged in conversation one on one, just to bring up small talk that were so kind. Yet, when their child did some thing a child would do, flew off their handle trying to discipline them.

One lady had commented to me how well behaved my children were and her son spilled his pop. I don’t’ know all the story since they had just sat down a little before and I was busy watching my kids but when she turned around and lit in to the child. After a 2 min tongue lashing, she turned around to talk to me and I was obviously busy with my children… I was embarrassed for her.

My wife has been after me, that I am kind and understanding to strangers and yet ridiculously demanding on my own family’s behavior and actions. With this up close view, I got to see it from the other side of the glass.

I feel like I am patient with my wife and children, by now in our family there are things that just should be understood. Yet after watching this mother react to a situation … I will make it my goal to be more understanding and patient with the ones I love. Much more than the common courtesy I extend to complete strangers.

I realize the scriptural reference could be compared to looking at our reflection in a smoked mirror, we can not see ourselves as God sees us. It is a good thing that the atonement of Christ covers the real me, because … I am not that pretty to look at, spiritually anyhow.

One day in spite of all my flaws and the nasty “best efforts” I make to fix them, God’s plan of grace will be fully exampled in my life. Something I can not fully understand.

For now we see through a glass, darkly; but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known.
I Corinthians 13:12

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